Damn, I´m already turning 14. Stuff went down during this time, dated a guy, dated a girl, got into a fandom, got into different music, etc. I feel like a completely different person from 1 and 2 years ago. I wonder if I am improving or degenerating as a human being. I plan to work on something I made a year ago. It may be darker, but since it was never shown online, you won´t have a comparison. I plan to make the script on a google doc and then put it all down on paper. After some stuff that went down a while back, I haven´t been in a good mental state and it caused me to lose motivation for everything. My grades show that. I feel like I can´t do anything to fix my grades. I feel stuck for that. I can´t focus on reading stuff anymore. I have self-pity. When I look into the mirror I see an ugly person. I found myself caring what people think and thought what other people thought so recently I´ve been forming my own opinions to prevent losing any more individuality. I´ve been getting back into listening to sad, creepy, and scary stories in my passtimes that fuels this inspiration to continue something I made with a darker tone.
I´ve been rambling here just so I can write this down. Here I´m usually a clown, but this is basically a followup with me. I still don´t know if I´m getting better or worse. It´s like I´m in limbo or stuck. I lack motivation and sometimes I have it. I changed my username into a SOS message before changing it back a few later on roblox. Do I need help? I don´t know.
Here I am rambling again. Kudos to anyone that cares about this enough to read all this.
I´m willing to text here with y´all. I´ve been writing for about 20 minutes already.

Oh, okay.

Bumping for those who want to see how I´ve been.

u wasted 5 mins of ur life just for me to say

tl;dr

damn you actually qualify for r/14andthisisdeep

Oh my god I do. Oh no! My hand is applying the eyeliner and black clothes right now! Oh no, I´m now dying my hair black! Oh no! Help! HELP!

Life is so hard am depressed oh woes me am emo kaleb now

keep going through, kaleb, in philosophy, if it's lots of bad luck, some day good luck will appear.

im already 14 but cool

Ya, I already read this yesterday and came back to see

I´ll just repost this on another post. I don´t really talk much about my birthday here.