If I have multiple personalities each our I say something it's something I have always been unsure of how can I tell if I have multiple personality disorder or not, I don't have insurance to see a therpist so of course I need to wait which is really taking a big hit on my mental health making me lose my sanity.

But at the same time I am not sure whether to ask anyone for help because they could give me an answer I can use it. But the downside of using their answer I could have a large possibility of self diagnosing because not everyone is right... feeling lost has always been my confusion

i found about my multiple personalities disorder thru friends telling me how I acted different when the other friends were around like completely new person while the others said I was normal doing that time and when I was with the friends that told me I change around others and I was only with them they said I'm completely fine and I;m back to normal or maybe that is a personality disorder I'm not really that sure

Ask your friends if you change when you're with others or feel yourself that you change around others

I was told I am different around friends of friends, but when I am around just my "friend" they tell me I have a whole different personality, the friends of friends will mention that I act super different towards them not acting myself. Sometimes I will even feel abandoned if they say something to hurt my feelings and wanna cry for hours and isolate myself this isn't normal considering I am 21 yrs old.

I have other people tell me i'm such a kind hearted angel friend to be around but when I am sad I give myself no credit for who I am because I forget who I am when i'm sad. Then I wanna just forget my past of loved ones I lost so I can cope and keep continuing my life.

Some people think i'm a sociopath for not caring for losing loved ones when I mention that, but it simply doesn't hurt me because i've always been hurt and back so I am pretty much immune to how others are feeling :)

I don't know anymore, what am I doing? Walking back where I began? Should I just kms already? I feel like my life is just repeated over and over.. what do I do? ):